Touch and Go

 Dear Marmite

I really wanted this blog to you to be a happy one. It isn't. Danielle had her baby last Friday, 3rd February. She had a difficult pregnancy, a difficult labour and now a newborn that is on the brink of life. Sadly, it is touch and go whether baby Hope will pull through. Currently Richard, Danielle and Ezra-Mae are in Leicester as there is a Specialist Baby Unit up there. There are so many sad things about all of this and the biggest is that Danielle cannot pick up this little bundle and give her a cuddle. 

Danielle says everyone in the hospital has been marvellous and supportive all the way through and we must praise them for everything that they have done. They recognised how tough it was for Danielle to be back on ward 9 with other mothers who had their babies with them. Now the family is in Leicester where there is a specialist baby unit. 

I am in constant touch with Danielle and I have Shadow with me. I know Shad-the-Bad spent last night on my sofa - Bad Dog... She then disappeared this morning and didn't answer when I called her. She was hiding under my bed. Bad dog. We went for a walk around the village and I was constantly looking at my phone and texting. This is something that irritates me no end when others do it. Whoops. Special times - special measures. Message to self - be more tolerant!

I was away last week and my Ring doorbell alerted me to movement outside my house. My nextdoor neighbour, Colin, had helped himself to my hose and water supply to wash his car. Bloody Cheek! I spoke to him through the Ring and he said he would have asked if I was around. He actually has my email, phone number and whatsapp... He really could have asked if he if had wanted to. He was caught red handed! Tolerance levels low.

My overriding emotion is actually love for Danielle, Richard and Ezra-Mae at this special time. As a Mum, I want to fix things and make everything right. I wish I had those special powers. 

I used to let my heart out to you, Marms, and I know that you always looked at me in just the right way to show you understood. I know you are there for me now. 

I really do love you,

XXX